I know. [ They'd never really made an effort of being secretive - once that cat had been let out of the bag by him literally crashing his bitch ex's party, Grimoire in hand, well that was that. They'd even went out together once and the less said about the fiasco at Ozzie's the better.
It was all a big risk from the start. ] I... I'm glad for that. I never want you to feel like you were burdening me.
[ And now. It's time for him to listen. Which he does, heart beating somewhere in his throat as Stolas talks. He talks of Blitz and the things he'd helped him, the ways he felt saved by him and he's sure that the doubts and hatred will come crawling back as they always do. But like when Millie had expressed a similar sentiment... maybe he could believe. You saved me, he said. ]
You've saved me, too. Not just at the trial but you know me. I was going down a path I -- You saw people at that party, know my reputation. I push people away. I push them away cause I'm hurt and I'm... [ scared ] but you made me want to change, and to not be that person anymore.
[ A deep breath. ]
I... yes. I do want this, I mean.
[ And he can't help it, bursts out laughing. Wiping the tears from his eyes, he reaches forward to pull the bird in for a long, passionate kiss. ]
That answer that question? Fuck yes I'll be your boyfriend. And top.
[ Truthfully, it had been hilarious as fuck to him. Hearing the crash of Blitz's exit and the unapologetic apology. It had been such an expression of freedom that Stolas couldn't help but follow by announcing their divorce.
He's always felt like that with Blitz, a taste of the freedom he could really have if he just reached for it. Definitely not an easy undertaking, and there are regrets but they're here now. ]
I'm happy to be your reason, but I also hope that you also want to change for yourself someday.
[ Just like Blitz, he holds on to the idea of changing for Octavia and his imp - but knows how devastating it is to lose that. That's enough serious talk, though. Stolas won't push the subject because there are other reasons to be happy for.
There's a small hoot of surprise at the kiss but he sinks into it easily enough. Hands caressing that beautiful face he loves so much. He laughs at the words, leaning in close and wrapping both arms around Blitz's neck. ]
Did you know that I visited a sex shop for the first time ever? [ Horny bird is still horny, news at 11. But also excited to do things he's never done before! ]
[ Well, he's glad that it entertained Stolas - he thought he was gonna die in that moment. Half naked, and covered in cake, clutching that magic book in the middle of a garden party full of powerful nobles in Hell? But he'd recovered enough to run off before anyone could react.
And that it had given Stolas inspiration, to allow him to feel free and give him the voice to announce his divorce (he'd heard that maniacal cackle as he fled the gardens, good for you, birdie). ]
It's just easier... to make it about someone else. Think you probably get that, though.
[ Cause if it was changing for himself? He's not sure he'd care enough to try: he gave up on himself a long time ago. Eventually he'll realize that these things come together. But enough of that. His eyes widen slightly as he mentions the sex shop. ]
[ ...
1. There's a sex shop here?
2. Stolas went without him?
3. Stolas went to a sex shop.
Blitz lets out a small purr that betrays his excitement. ]
There's my horny bird. You wanna... show me whatcha got, Stols or you gonna leave me in suspense?
[ Please, Stella would never get her hands dirty with such things. She'd hire an assassin - which she did but to kill Stolas instead.
Still, Blitz was inspirational right when Stolas needed it most. ]
I do understand that. You do the same for me, make it easier to want to change.
[ Both Blitz and Octavia gave him the strength he needed to start and when he does feel like it's too much - too hard, he knows they're right there for him. That he doesn't have to do any of this alone.
He can practically see the thoughts processing in Blitz's mind. Now is when he leans more into the imp, arms sliding to rest over his shoulders until they're pressed together. ]
Hm, now I'm regretting not picking out one of those sex swings~
[ It's a playful tease because they can always go get one if they want. Still, he does pull away to slide a nice trunk out from under the bed that has a lock on it. Loona and Octavia would know better than to look in it, but Snow would need to be told first.
Inside is quite the collection of restraints, toys, and various kinds of paddles. ]
[ It's probably for the best in some way that Stolas never mentioned knowing who was behind those attacks, cause that trial for trying to kill a Goetia might've been real. Stupid icy bitch. ]
Yeah. You get it.
[ He has family, he has support and friends - people he can rely on and trust to have his back. Maybe eventually he'll start to want to make those changes for himself as well, though.
He shifts through the box, picking up an item here and there - his eyes getting big like saucers. He picks up a paddle and smacks it against his hand once or twice, grinning at the sting. Nice heft. ]
[ His eyes turn to Stolas. ]
Maybe if he's good today, I'll take my dirty bird to go pick out some new toys.
[ His eyes beg the questioning: is this what you want? ]
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It was all a big risk from the start. ] I... I'm glad for that. I never want you to feel like you were burdening me.
[ And now. It's time for him to listen. Which he does, heart beating somewhere in his throat as Stolas talks. He talks of Blitz and the things he'd helped him, the ways he felt saved by him and he's sure that the doubts and hatred will come crawling back as they always do. But like when Millie had expressed a similar sentiment... maybe he could believe. You saved me, he said. ]
You've saved me, too. Not just at the trial but you know me. I was going down a path I -- You saw people at that party, know my reputation. I push people away. I push them away cause I'm hurt and I'm... [ scared ] but you made me want to change, and to not be that person anymore.
[ A deep breath. ]
I... yes. I do want this, I mean.
[ And he can't help it, bursts out laughing. Wiping the tears from his eyes, he reaches forward to pull the bird in for a long, passionate kiss. ]
That answer that question? Fuck yes I'll be your boyfriend. And top.
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He's always felt like that with Blitz, a taste of the freedom he could really have if he just reached for it. Definitely not an easy undertaking, and there are regrets but they're here now. ]
I'm happy to be your reason, but I also hope that you also want to change for yourself someday.
[ Just like Blitz, he holds on to the idea of changing for Octavia and his imp - but knows how devastating it is to lose that. That's enough serious talk, though. Stolas won't push the subject because there are other reasons to be happy for.
There's a small hoot of surprise at the kiss but he sinks into it easily enough. Hands caressing that beautiful face he loves so much. He laughs at the words, leaning in close and wrapping both arms around Blitz's neck. ]
Did you know that I visited a sex shop for the first time ever? [ Horny bird is still horny, news at 11. But also excited to do things he's never done before! ]
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And that it had given Stolas inspiration, to allow him to feel free and give him the voice to announce his divorce (he'd heard that maniacal cackle as he fled the gardens, good for you, birdie). ]
It's just easier... to make it about someone else. Think you probably get that, though.
[ Cause if it was changing for himself? He's not sure he'd care enough to try: he gave up on himself a long time ago. Eventually he'll realize that these things come together. But enough of that. His eyes widen slightly as he mentions the sex shop. ]
[ ...
1. There's a sex shop here?
2. Stolas went without him?
3. Stolas went to a sex shop.
Blitz lets out a small purr that betrays his excitement. ]
There's my horny bird. You wanna... show me whatcha got, Stols or you gonna leave me in suspense?
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Still, Blitz was inspirational right when Stolas needed it most. ]
I do understand that. You do the same for me, make it easier to want to change.
[ Both Blitz and Octavia gave him the strength he needed to start and when he does feel like it's too much - too hard, he knows they're right there for him. That he doesn't have to do any of this alone.
He can practically see the thoughts processing in Blitz's mind. Now is when he leans more into the imp, arms sliding to rest over his shoulders until they're pressed together. ]
Hm, now I'm regretting not picking out one of those sex swings~
[ It's a playful tease because they can always go get one if they want. Still, he does pull away to slide a nice trunk out from under the bed that has a lock on it. Loona and Octavia would know better than to look in it, but Snow would need to be told first.
Inside is quite the collection of restraints, toys, and various kinds of paddles. ]
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Yeah. You get it.
[ He has family, he has support and friends - people he can rely on and trust to have his back. Maybe eventually he'll start to want to make those changes for himself as well, though.
He shifts through the box, picking up an item here and there - his eyes getting big like saucers. He picks up a paddle and smacks it against his hand once or twice, grinning at the sting. Nice heft. ]
[ His eyes turn to Stolas. ]
Maybe if he's good today, I'll take my dirty bird to go pick out some new toys.
[ His eyes beg the questioning: is this what you want? ]